Everything Happens For A Reason

11 Jul

So Sunday night, I was sitting in my Mom’s kitchen, telling her I wished I had a month off to figure out what exactly I want to do with my life. Fundraising is a tough business – especially in a city like Houston, where we all compete for the same dollars. Hearing “no” all the time beats you down. And of course, being the way I am, every day that we DON’T find a cure, I feel guilty, like it’s my fault. Logically, I know I’m not a scientist – but it’s still incredibly difficult to talk to people with a life altering, chronic illness every day and not feel some sense of responsibility for their ongoing suffering.

Today I lost the job I moved to Houston for.

I almost wish I could tell you I’m devastated, that I don’t know how I’ll live. I would be lying.

This job has drained me for 2.5 years. Despite the amazing people I’ve gotten to meet, the incredible patients whose lives I’ve touched and been a part of…. I feel a tremendous weight off my shoulders. Will I, at 28 years old, finally find the job I was meant for?

The funny thing is, when I was in Wisconsin last week, I went to my Grandma’s grave, and we had a little chat. (I talk to her all the time, but somehow sitting at her headstone, I feel like I’m within arms reach of her again.) I reminded her that the last time I saw her alive, she told me I would find a job I love (I hadn’t told her I was even looking) and I asked her for her help again, to point me in the right direction. 

A few days later, I had that conversation with my mom. And today, I find myself sitting here, with the world wide open, and an opportunity to find my calling.

I am truly a lucky woman. Everything happens for a reason.

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3 Responses to “Everything Happens For A Reason”

  1. Sara :) July 11, 2013 at 5:10 pm #

    Going to miss you so much, but I know something better is in store for you!!! And even though we haven’t found a cure yet, you helped more than you know!

  2. jojocrabb July 11, 2013 at 5:22 pm #

    love you forever. i cant wait to hear about your next journey and your lovely little patients your life will come in contact with and be forever changed!!! life has a funny way of working out.

  3. Renee July 11, 2013 at 10:52 pm #

    Everything does happen for a reason, I found that out also after a job I had for 21 yrs. You will find something and you will be good at it, like everything you do. Me being a person with arthritis, thanks you for the work you did do. Good luck and hang in there.

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